Capo: 3rd fret
[Intro]
C Em D
Oh O-oh O-o-oh
G
I havent figured out a decent word
F
To take the lead of the phrase
to describe this thought
G
It's a word with a "dis-"
like a thick disorder
F
A disease, disappointment,
disaster, distraught
C
Disruptive and draining,
D
The paint on the walls of my brain
F
is all flakey and peeling away
C
Foundation is shaking
D
Through smiles that im faking
F
Im achingly trying to get through each day
G C
These struggles are backed by the fact
D
that compassion is lacking
G C
Like the true definition of real
F
understanding falls flat
C G
Theres a sky up above but I see it all
D
shaking and cracking
G D
through the cracks I see no answer
Em G
I dont know where im at
You're probably wondering, "uh why?
Why would you wanna kill yourself?"
Uh that's a great question
It's like I hear this relentless buzzing,
and it just gets louder, and louder and LOUBER
G
As it start to build,
you cant look down
F
Standing off, clench your jaw,
you lost sight of normal
G
Try to stay somewhere safe
like your childhood memories
F G F
Too bad you cant escape the mental thunderstorm
G
The days on repeat,
D
Every week with a shrink
G F
Face-to-face with a doctor whose interest depleted
G D
Sessions complete with the same stupid question
G F
All therapists ask without skipping a beat
G
With zero finesse,
D
Every shrink has expressed
F
Their endorsement of pills
G
that make life less depressing
G
Addressing my stresses
D
And pressures
G
Subjectively seems like what
D F
doctors might do when theyre guessing
Em C
Seventeen years and emotions
D
are scattered and raging
Em C
Numbing the pain with the pill
G
Till stabilitys flat
F C
But numbing the pain is just dumbing me down,
D
nothings changing
G D
Im staring blankly at the walls
Em G
I dont know where im at
And you think!
Getting older will make ALL of this easier.
It doesnt.
Getting older just means more responsibilities.
And more responsibilities, less help.
D Em
Frustrations turn into a dim-lit light
C
On in the middle of a room at night
G
Cant see the little bit of glow,
B
No
Em
Wrong or right, no one seems to bother asking
C G
If we might need a little middle-of-a-road
D
How could you know?
C
I guess you had to be there
D C
I guess you had to be there
Em G
And that's just where im at
F C
Always scared of my potential
F C
Never get how im essential
Em G
Yeah thats where im at
F C
Where youre force-fed what they hand you
F C
Where your friends dont understand you
Em G
Wrong or right, no one seems to bother asking
C D G
If we might need a little middle-of-the-road
D
How could you know
Em G
Just where im at
F C
Where your friends dont care about you
F C
Where theyre better off without you
Em G
Look at where im at
F C
Where your mom and dad dont get you
F C
Try to live but then forget to
C Em D
Oh O-oh O-o-oh
C Em D
Oh O-oh O-o-oh
C
Can you blame me?
Em
I know this cant be right
D
I stomach down and no wonder I lost my appetite
C
They try to save me
Em
No one keeps me up at night
They think they know whats best for me
But they dont know
Em G
Where im at!
To sum up, im 17 years old.
I dont know anything about most things but here's what i do know.
Em G
(Where im at!)
Im a literal piece of wallpaper!
A cog in a wheel in a machine thats irrelevant.
Em G
(Where im at!)
I have enough anxiety
to fill a crater in the moon.
And im running out of options.
Or maybe, ive already run out.
Em
Burnt-down light, up in the attic
C
So youre up all night
G
Put out the little bit of glow
B
So
Em
Thats just life, thrown in the middle of a
C
Losing fight,
G
Stuck but theyre forcing us to grow
D
So
Em
Dim-lit light
C
On in the middle of a room at night
G
Cant see the little bit of glow
B
So
Em
No wrong or right
C
No one seems to bother asking if we might
G
Need a little middle-of-the-road
D
How could you know?
C
I guess you had to be there
Hi! Im Craig Gilner
I always look like im about to cry
So I move the muscles on my face to make me smile!
And that's my life!
Em G
Yeah, this is where im at!
G
Any questions?
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